Underwhelmed?

I'll write a proper blog again soon. For now, a song hit me pretty hard this morning:

"I keep expecting so much, but I see little in return. I'm desperate for the deeper moments, but nothing happens. I'm needing meaning in this life, it seems I'm carrying too much. Everything I've known has come into question, lessons I've learned just seem to tear apart.

You promised me so much when I began to walk with You. You said we'd change the world together but now it just seems we are nowhere further on.


And I am Underwhelmed again, I'm wanting more than you are giving. Is there more than I am seeing? There must be more than this.

So i'm at the lowest low now. Thinking its time to can it all. I need a breakthrough from the nothing, but I'm remembering your call...where it all started. Hearing fresh Your voice again, something calling me to press on. And suddenly, I find myself bowing down...

And I am overwhelmed, I hear Your voice still calling for me.

Overwhelmed again. Remembering all You've made for me.

Overwhelmed again. Not deserving all You're giving.

Overwhelmed again. Another chance at truly living..."

I seem to constantly find myself 'underwhelmed' lately. I guess its important to keep reminding myself that even through the darkness I am loved and saved by an almighty, compassionate and straight up epic God.