A conversation with myself...

So raw. It's late, and this is my thought process right now.
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You doin well?

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No?

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Bummer, whys that?


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Wait, what do you mean 'apathetic' ??

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Ok. Stop there. Theres this dude. You might know him. He was pretty important a few years back. Heard of him? Yeah, you what time of year it is?

You talk about it, but you can't even BEGIN to understand what He went through. You realise that after the beating and torture he endured its more than likely he was barely recognisable when He got to the cross? Mocked, bullied, abused and ridiculed. And I know you know the stuff that came before that: betrayed, denied, rejected, sentenced, all that stuff.

Filled with a sorrow and sadness deeper than you will ever understand, yet with nothing but love in His heart, He stretched out his arms on the cross, and Jesus died for you.

I know you know this. 'Cause I know the moments you find to be at peace with yourself you hear Jesus in things you love most:

"Everything I do...I do it for you"

"I will try to fix you..."

"It was all for you..."

"Refined, You'll become the most dazzling precious treasure..."

"Did you know that I love you?"

Apathetic???! Dont you DARE...I know you know this, and if you're too lazy to spend the rest of your life in thanksgiving for it, I dont want to know you.

So get off your backside. Stand up, and thank Him...with every second you're alive.

'Cause even with that you will fall a thousand miles short of repaying the debt you owe.